I wish I didn’t just naturally assume that people are mad or annoyed at me when I interact with them.
2014 @ 23:59 / 18837 / Permalink
"You’re going to leave me, aren’t you? … You’ve had enough of me, haven’t you? You’re probably so tired of all this crying and all these moods, and I’ve got to tell you, so am I. So am I. Sometimes it seems like my mind has a mind of its own, like I just get hysterical, like it’s something I can’t control at all. And I don’t know what to do, and I feel so sorry for you because you don’t know what to do either. And I’m sure you’re going to leave me now."
2014 @ 23:51 / 3202 / Permalink
"Some friends don’t understand this. They don’t understand how desperate I am to have someone say, I love you and I support you just the way you are because you’re wonderful just the way you are. They don’t understand that I can’t remember anyone ever saying that to me. I am so demanding and difficult for my friends because I want to crumble and fall apart before them so that they will love me even though I am no fun, lying in bed, crying all the time, not moving. Depression is all about If you loved me you would."
My deathbed seems close that’s dramatic but I have a sinus infection and laryngitis and I feel awful!! I also have a lot of spots on my face and I’ve barely showered in days. I’m a mess!!!
i’m so scared. am i a good friend? do people like me? am i ok? can i do this? i’mso scared